The sun went down but the traffic curbs were still on and
this is an usual sight across my city and it environs….the week was appearing
on the horizon, the skies turned dark and it poured across the twin cities till
dusk. The camaraderie and sorority between them is effective…. However, today
the reason for me to blog is something entirely different and perhaps I can
bluntly proclaim that this is not my style of usual blogging. Given said and
done, there are lot more things to blog about but I would certainly like to
express my views about my encounter with an auto driver today.
As I stay very far from office I need to change couple of
transportation modes to reach my home. Although I refrain taking auto for
pretty clear reasons, as I was in extreme hurry today, I thought of giving auto
a try after 3 long years. So I waived my hand and an autowallah came to me. As
usual his first statement was the auto meter is not working so he started by
asking how much can I offer. In my mind, I always knew that he is lying and
helplessly I said certain amount and he tried to negotiate it to twice of it.
As I was in hurry I had to agree but I ended the deal with a statement that
with this amount I could go triple of the distance with AC "ON" in couple of cab
services across the city. Like always these
cowards, anonymous afraid to be true to expression started abusing his competitors
and finally ended up on a fight with me.
I
knew that the auto driver is either upset with his inability to cope up with
the competitive world or might be feeing low with himself.
I have something else to blog but I will blog this first….
Sometimes there is an oversight, this city is expanding so much with each day
that it requires different means of transport so there is a constraint….so
first of all autowallah’s should never
project that if we are not considering them then, that means its just an
administrative omission and this is just one part of my discussion…... this
auto driver don’t know anything nor has any desire to learn. I could say this
so manifestly because he was showing no interest even to understand what kind
of competition is there is the market and on the top of it he was just
badmouthing others and trying to teach me. I was indeed disturbed and in fact I
never get angry on such people whom I do not even know…as I believe that anger
is an expression that you gift yourself on whose love you trust.
Basically, i don’t get angry even with people whom I knew
since years because I never feel secure with them that I can get angry with
them and still continue our friendship and there are few friends of mine whom I
knew just few years back and I don’t even hesitate to slap them if I have to
because I know they understand it as my expression of love for them and I am
sure because I slapped they will never leave me and there I will take that freedom
even to slap. so there are few people whom I have given this freedom to push
them because I know they trust my love for them and vice versa.
Well, again the reason behind the blog is about all those
insecure auto drivers. I am not upset because he fought with me or used abusive
language in front of me. But rather, I feel that anything that is a part of
your life or that stumbles across your ways should make you peaceful. It should
not become part of your life and become source of disturbance in your life…why
at all add anything to your life which being a part of your life becomes source
of disturbance to you? The Auto business being in this autowallah’s life will
make sense if it brings peace and growth to him. If this is going to be source
of disturbance to him, then probably he should drop this from his life
objectively. Even if this is some concept of religion or god, anything that
comes into your life should make you peaceful…nothing should stay in your life
and continue as source of disturbance. If this business is making him sometimes
feel on the top of the world and some times leaves him dejected like today,
then this is not at all required in his life.
I sincerely believe that one should put our peace above
anything else. Any gain at the loss of your peace is no gain at all…I don’t
think we should hold on/anchor to anything if it is not an eternal peace of
growth to us. Nothing deserves to be a part of our life and take away our
peace…..
Same is the case with this auto driver, when I said to him
about how his competitors are considering their job as craft and innovating newer
and better things with each day, this autowallah was asking me to give a break.
I was only trying to help him….. What pains me is why is he making himself ugly
with all these expressions! Lot of thoughts floated in my mind like, even if I wontedly
provoking him, why is he becoming ugly in entire process…. why he have to get
nasty…why don’t he remain beautiful and try to learn if possible? why should
anything be ugly in the world become an excuse for you to become ugly…let
something be wrong in the world..you remain right, why are you becoming wrong?
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And the upcoming innovative methods work, they are
transparent….and they will capture the entire market…they are working not because
they want endorsement of one or two. They are working because they want this
lifestyle to change…. make this world free of corruption….
My anger is a social anger…which is on me. because I feel
like a failure that my fellow beings don’t have feeling of thankfulness.
Rape is happening everywhere and no one is doing anything about it, if you go
to spiritual ashram, there the swami is sleeping with the seeker…where do I
send my daughter to???
If you don’t
transcend body you cannot transcend your mind and if you cannot transcend your
mind you cannot transcend your inner agitation and if you don’t transcend your
emotional inner agitation you cannot experience silence….so my anger is that my
fellow beings cannot understand how to transcend their emotional inner
agitations, so when can they understand what is silence?
Signing Off...
Aditya Telidevara
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