The Forgotten relationships

I don’t believe in destiny, I believe in pain and regard it as the best teacher one can ever have. I also reckon that every trouble is a chance to get destiny. And consider the greatest weakness of a man is “not believing”---doubt.

“Relationship” –perhaps one of the most beautiful word’s I had ever heard. I am no Shakespeare I really wish I had the most perfect and beautiful words in the world to say, because if I did I would say them—I‘d say how great people feel when they palpate they are not solely —–Bur most of all I would tell that relationships (in whatever sense they may be, friendship, love, teacher-student, parent-child etc) would make one a better person.

Many times I was marveled at the following names “Amitabh bachan-dharmendra”, “Leander Paes-Mahesh Bhupathi”, “Rabindranath Tagore-Subash Chandra Bose” and many more to delineate. Once upon a time these were the most-best friends. But what happened later? This made me to think, does every relationship come with a “sell by” date? Yes, No, May be?

This also made me to think that how can anyone loose something which they never had. Is it that they never had any friendship? Whatsoever, for me every thwarting will make one stronger. My dad always tells me about Antaeus, the great gigantic wrestler in greek mythology. His mother was Gaia (Goddess of earth). He was unbeatable because every time he is thrown back to earth, he became more-stronger.

It’s my firm belief that relationship doesn’t get closer by constant meetings, but it is sweetened by thoughts, I care for people whom I love in my own strange world, perhaps I’ll never know, perhaps I’ll never show!

One has to work very hard to achieve that inner sense of peace; yet it takes nano seconds to lose it all. Pain, anxiety, despair come – in waves, washing in one after another – leaving you barely hanging on from the edge of a cliff… One finds one self standing where one started, sometimes even further behind from that.

This week, I stumbled onto a forgotten fragment of my past, a glimpse into the ‘other’s’ life and it again caused so much hurt, so much grief of standing where I was – years back. Life comes pouring down like a hailstorm. Can someone account the time I lost, in wondering, in wandering, in being in pain??? Is god keeping a ledger of this? What hurts me is that the friends we chose for life are the ones who aren’t there anymore . May be the relationship wasn’t meant to work out, it was apparent from the start. However, I never bailed out on my friends, no matter how hard they tried to make me do that. maybe few hold on to a dying friendship – because it’s the family I chose for myself. I guess, all things have a shelf life, an expiry date, relationships come with an expiry date, so do friendships – I have realized. I am usually told: “Oh you are too emotional!” Right! I agree, but then aren’t these the very emotions, which allowed me to care for my friends, to be there, sometimes to even bear the bullshit of others around them. We might say that one shouldn’t expect anything but is it really possible to do so? Anyways, expectations are always to be broken…so are hearts, so is trust, so are family ties, so are friendships….they are strong but they aren’t invincible; they are fragile too….

All good things must someday come to an end., Although I'd love to think about the saying, that best friends are forever..