Phase 3...The beginning

My Mother always tells me that one would never know what true love is until they have children of their own.  Sadly I didn't realize that she was talking about me until quite a sometime.  She was right. I was in the room where they bathe and check babies just after birth. ...  And yes, I was just waiting to see when the door flashes “open” and the doc comes out with our cute little miracle..YES..I was waiting outside the labor ward waiting to see my baby for the first time ever…as always; there are no words to describe the feeling. I was outside myself and truly humbled…..just in the midst of mixed feelings a nurse came out of the ward and  was requesting me for couple of signatures and documentation work which I was supposed to do as a prerequisite…..While I was doing this, my mind was wandering over the events happened in the  past few months where in my wife was experiencing the most vivid and exciting period, any women goes through her life….yes, the period where one experiences the little bumps and jumps of the infant inside her womb.  Even though my little one is still to see the world outside at that point of time, I was pretty sure that that my baby is already experiencing the world through my wife…through her eyes, emotions and thoughts. She used to say that, her every move, her every little excitement, her every mood swing brings in some reactions from within too. Also,. one thing i always used to observe was that whenever there was any music being played, the somersault acts used to begin ;) , so it is then I decided that music is for sure shot “A Turn On” for my kid just like my beautiful wife ;) ..Just at this very moment an attended came out and was asking us what are we expecting..Boy or Girl….! Ah..Well..from the bottom of my heart, I was more than ready either for boy or girl, so I just smiled at her and asked her what she thinks it could be (based on her experience) and she instantly said it will be a girl and she said this with some calculations…I again smiled at her and my mind again slid down to those past months where in the period was a very crucial one…as everything she feel, eat, sense or smell is received by the baby . thanks to my  in-laws who constantly monitored her acts…and gave the needed guidelines. I was just admitting that …my wife  has changed a lot in terms of mindset , becoming a bit more sensible and responsible…may be because she knows .there is someone…within her…completely helpless…all dependent on her….and whose responsibility and safety is now her priority.  And I was just recollecting those little ‘dishums’  my wife used to experience when suddenly the attendant came out and told me that it is BABY GIRL and she is proud of her prediction…I was so super thrilled at this moment that I hugged my brother-in-law tightly and just kissed him (of course on his cheeks ;)) and this is a reminder to me that “daddy I am here…come cuddle me up”. I can feel the bond between us tighten by every passing second…. I always felt that my little one is as eager as me to see the world and so am I to get a glimpse my lovely baby GIRL…!!

Wait! I could see someone coming out of the operation theater….before I could realize  this, I saw my mother-in-law hunting down and what I have seen in the next few minutes I just want to block forever in my life..if I really want to verbalize my feeling of this moment…all I could remember is one of the famous lines in the history:

“Alice:How long is forever? White Rabbit:Sometimes, just one second.” YES, I just felt this second of my life is foreverJ

 I was just staring at her only to realize that my baby has finally arrived and I just can’t wait to see her little cute nose , the innocent toothless smile, and the twinkling little eyes.  The moment has come when she  invaded our life with happiness! Here was a baby that would shape my life more than I could possibly hope to shape the baby’s… I should now plan on learning more from her than I could ever hope to teach her.  Life is beautiful and holding her was the best of what we call life. I know people always tell you it was the happiest moment in their life and in hindsight it probably was, but the moment itself really just felt surreal. I couldn't believe she was finally there and that she was "mine". The fact that I was now her Dad, was just too big to grasp at that moment, but I did feel this overwhelming feeling of responsibility for this tiny little human. 

In short, I had never before felt so grown up (and I realize that this sounds much colder than I intend)

 Now I know why the bond between a mother and child is so strong…even when both are apart, both are always connected together through some strange network…which is build within …even before you are born ...and continues to …follow you where ever you go…wherever you are…

Love you Always My Dearest Daughter,

Yours,

Daddy